the heart, harvested

he grabbed her and hand and lead her into the room,
"sit down,"he said,
she sat on the bed, waited...
and then it came, the hard blow to her upper lip and the second to her abdomen, she'd misbehaved again...
"i'm sorry!"she screamed and screamed over and over,
he didn't listen.
"i love you!" he shouted above her sobs,
"i love you and you keep hurting me!" he started to cry as he beat her,
they both heard the crack of her rib as she fell to the floor,
"baby, you're killing me," she whispered
"please stop!" she cried a little louder
he ignored her, draggin her across the room to the bathroom,
"get cleaned up, we're going out..."
she lay in the bath,
submersed completely in steaming hot water and thought about not getting up...
"what if i stayed here?" she asked herself,
"what if i just didn't get up...
"what if i didn't breath...?"
but there it was again,
the voice of reason,
"hurry the fuck up!
"she thought she'd try to make a change as she rubbed her strawberry smelling lotion on her scarred body, as she pulled up her lacy black leggings he bought her for valentines day,she thought she'd fix it as she slid into his favourite red dress and let her long dark hair down her back, she thought she'd make it all better as she slipped into the black crocodile heels and picked up her bag,
"i'll make him see," she said to herself as she dabbed the fruit scented perfume behind her ears and down her breasts,
she walked down the stairs,
he was waiting for her...
"where are we going?" she asked,
he didn't answer
"hey... where are we going?"
she asked again, he didn't answer.
he opened the front door, there was a limo outside,
black, velvet and classy,
she opened the door herslef and climbed inside without a word...
he climbed in after.
"i want you to behave tonight" he said sternly
and didn't speak again until the car stopped.

the restaurant was packed,
there was laughter and conversation everywhere,
he guided her to a table in the back,
where the room was lit ever so slightly...
she sat down,
she waited for him to take his seat,
but he didn't,
"i'll be right back" he said and disappeared into the front of the restaurant,
"this is my chance she thought as she reached into her bag for her lip gloss,
"i need to do it now...
"the waiter arrived and asked what she wanted to drink,
she knew better than to order without him,
so she smiled and shook her head,
he returned instantly,
"what was that?" he asked,
"what was what?" she looked puzzled,
he put his hand to her face, she flinched,
he caressed her cheek,
"i told you to behave" he said smiling, he pulled her ear hard,
"don't make me angry..."he sat down and reached for her knee under the table,
he pinched her...
"ouch!" she gasped...he ignored her once again.

when the waiter returned he ordered a bottle of sweet whiite wine,
"make sure its chilled," he said in his professional voice and the waiter walked away...

after the third glass of wine, her head was spinning,
"i need to do this now," she thought...
"hey... " she took his hand,
"can i talk to you about something real quick?"
he looked at her with daring eyes and smiled,
"marry me?"
his words were not a question,
his eyes were not asking,
his grip was not gentle,
his smile not inviting,
but she heard herself say...
"okay..."