temporary farewell

to say goodbye to you is not to say it's the end of knowing you
it is goodbye for now
till another time comes when we meet and we greet and we learn from the beginning
how to make each other laugh again
how to find the special things that make us smile
how to sought through the layers and layers of baggage to find the realness within
to say goodbye to you now makes me sad
but what could make me sadder?
not being able to say goodbye again
because saying goodbye is temporary
we will never be temporary
always a wonder
if i say i will always love you, i'd not be lying
but let me rather say
i love you everyday
not more each day and not less each day
i just love you
i still love you
forever
but goodbye for now
we'll meet again i'm sure,
i am certain

the fall of the embassy

i feel numb
i feel nothing
i feel no remorse
i feel guilty because i feel nothing, but remorse
i feel frightened because being numb and feeling nothing but remorse hurts more than loving someone who never had enough in them love me
i feel ugly
i feel bitter
i feel numb, numb, numb
i feel like the insides of my heart are caving in from sorrow
i feel physical pain
i feel th insides of my stomach turn with regret
i feel sorry for myself
i feel pity, sadness and i feel numb
i feel hatred
i feel angry and scared
i feel more anger than fear
i feel like no one will ever see me
i feel exposed but i also feel invisible
i feel unwanted,disregarded, deserted, detested
i feel magnificent amounts of dread
i feel numb
i feel so fucking numb
i feel like closing my eyes and wishing for change, but my wishes are futile
i feel negative
i feel like a prude, a phony
i feel dishonest, like a liar
i feel numb
i feel so numb
i feel like the embassador of love has died

i'm down for whatever

if you're there then i'm there,
it doesn't have to be fair,
wherever you take me i'll go, you lead me,
i'm down for whatever...

if you win then i win,
my love for you will bypass your sins,
you don't have to guide my heart, it will follow you anyhere
i'm down for whatever...

you don't hurt me,
you seduce fate when you're tempted to decieve me,
to have to forgive you again would be the end of me,
but hey,
i'm down for whatever...

delusion escapes you,
you see,you've forgotten that you love me too,
you know me and i know you,
so,
i'm down for whatever...

indifference isn't what i'd call it,
rather a mania of infatuation,i'd like to forfeit,
i'm inlove with you,
i can't ignore it,
i'm down for whatever...

i'm down for whatever,
wherever you take me,
however you'd like me to get to you,
whenever you need me,
i'm down my boy,
for you,
i'm down,
down for whatever...

however,
whenever,
whatever...

i'm down for whatever...