the fall of the embassy

i feel numb
i feel nothing
i feel no remorse
i feel guilty because i feel nothing, but remorse
i feel frightened because being numb and feeling nothing but remorse hurts more than loving someone who never had enough in them love me
i feel ugly
i feel bitter
i feel numb, numb, numb
i feel like the insides of my heart are caving in from sorrow
i feel physical pain
i feel th insides of my stomach turn with regret
i feel sorry for myself
i feel pity, sadness and i feel numb
i feel hatred
i feel angry and scared
i feel more anger than fear
i feel like no one will ever see me
i feel exposed but i also feel invisible
i feel unwanted,disregarded, deserted, detested
i feel magnificent amounts of dread
i feel numb
i feel so fucking numb
i feel like closing my eyes and wishing for change, but my wishes are futile
i feel negative
i feel like a prude, a phony
i feel dishonest, like a liar
i feel numb
i feel so numb
i feel like the embassador of love has died