60 seconds

i'm watching myself disappear
i can feel my soul drifting
i am trying to save it, chase after and retain it, but it's long gone.

i'm alone.

there are weeds intertwining themselves around my heart, sowing themselves in and out, securing it. the inside remain in and the outside remain out.

they become tighter and i gasp...

i can't breathe, i can't breathe!

the expectations, the accusations, the deadlines, the pressure, the heartache, the sorrow, the sadness, the hatred chase me as i search high and low for that soul.

the soul i intend to keep, even if it were just for a minute. (just for a minute. only for a minute. i need that minute!)

i am slowing down, the weeds are holding me back. they wrap themselves thickly around my chest and arms.

i can hardly move.

my heart has been sealed, it's safe and sound.

except, i am one soul less and i have shut love out.

loneliness doesn't know a better friend than me.