In situations where one has no control of the end result, it becomes frustratin when you feel as though the end result could have been different had you been aware of the circumstances...
For instance, i didn't know he had no intention of being in any kind of committed relationship, because had i known, i would have decided then and there that there was an oppertunity there for us to grow.
Instead i found that he was eager to please me, emotionally and was "courting" me in sense.He said the right things, but never made promises...
He oohed and aaahed at the right places, complimented the right outfits and laughed at the appropriate jokes.
The problem however was, as i sit here writing this, i have no idea whether he was being genuine or whether he was being artificial already by that time.
The problem many woman have with relationships is that we always think they'll be afraid to commit, so we don't push them, in order to preserve our own integrity and to feed their ever growing ego...
He didn't seem to have commitment phobia though, and was quite open to being in a kind of "open, not-too-serious " relationship with me.
So what i don't understand here is,what the hell went in wrong in the space between,"yes, i wanna be with you" and the now non-existant phone calls, messages and emails...
I am currently confused.I have been seeing him for the past 3 months and in this time have come to know him as the "guy i'm with" and not exactly my boyfriend.. "yet"
Things were fine until i told him how i felt.He asked me to be honest, and i was... so what the hell was the damn problem...?
As soon as i said i wanted "stabilty" the phone calls stopped...
Is this an indictaion of serious commitment phobia or a sign that he wants to be in a relationship, just not with me.?
These questions will reside in my mind while i give him the silent treatment and try to move on and forget his sorry ass...
What a loser!
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